disturbia

the following is a real-life occurrence that is completely non-fictional. i also realize that it is a rant about a burrito joint, but i can deal with such (and so should you):

the day is: june 2, 2009

the time is: approx 4:15 in the afternoon

the weather is: sunny with patchy clouds, moderate temperature

the location is: Chipotle at westlake shopping centah, daly city

my people, i am in the mood for some chipotle! if i was at berkeley i would've just gone to telegraph and gotten a nice lil burrito bowl and a free drank! but back home i had to drive to the closest chipotle at westlake...it's kinda new. my mom also wanted a burrito bowl so when i got to the counter, i say:

"hi i'd like two burrito bowls"

then the chipotle man says:

"alright, for here or to go?"

"to go"

"okay. what kind of beans?"

"oh no beans in one of them and black beans in the other"

"okay. oh, excuse me John can we get more rice. yeah, more rice...rice... yeha okay so what kind of meat can i get for you"

"um carne asada in the bowl with the beans and chicken in the other"

and then homey proceeds to put chicken in both of them...but i let it slide cause i felt bad and he'd have to start assembling the beaned burrito bowl all over again

"alright and what else do you want in them?"

"uhh in the one with the beans can i get tomato salsa, corn salsa, sour cream, lettuce, cheese, guac. and the same thing in the other one except no sour cream"

"okay...so you wanted hot sauce in the second one?"

"oh no.....i meant no sour cream"

"okay. and it was steak in both of these, yah?"

"oh no, they're actually both chicken"

so he puts the foil lid on them and writes a big S on both of them...and i'm confused and didn't want to correct him cause what if in chipotle language, "S" means "chicken?"...you never know.

so the cashier says:

"alright two steak bowls to go?"

"oh actually they're chicken"

"oh really? how comes it says S"

"yeah i don't really know...i just told that man that they were chicken. you can ask him if you want"

"oh no. fine by me...as long as you aren't lying to me, then everything's cool"

"yeah i'm not lying"

"alright! have a grand day then"

but i could see through his falsitudes! homeboy thought i was lying!

alright, bottom lines: i was having communication issues. i prefer berkeley chipotle over westlake chipotle. i feel the need to express myself through childish rants via weblog.

and such is my life thus far this summer

haha just kidding, life is good. i gave myself a haircut today so i might be lookin kinda funky for a few weeks...i can't really tell if my hair is even or not. 

fill up my cup...mazal tov!

it is the summertime! 

i ended school maybe two weeks ago actually...it's been quite productive so far! let us see. i: moved out of the dorms, hung out in cupertino, CA, saw Wicked, went on a retreat with IV in Challenge, CA (at some bougie campgrounds that had their very own blob, zipline, kayaks, and see-through shower doors), and i have yet to clean my room/finish moving back in. 

so that brings me to my Summer List, which i've never had before!

o. rent from netflix and watch such great movies like: recess, the power rangers movie, the first season of pokemon, finding neverland, i am sam, zoolander, and maybe some other things

1. keep a journal...doodling things, talking to jesus, writing down thoughts

2. become better friends with my dog (maybe i'll teach her a trick...like to blink on command)

3. pull the 6-foot dandelion weeds in my backyard. holla

4. go work out or do something active each day

5. choreograph something

6. learn how to use my family's DVR

7. win the wicked front-row lottery

8. go to pinkberry

9. learn to give myself a haircut

10. go karaoking

11. read 'omnivore's dilemma' and finish 'crazy love' (i aim high)

12. learn to cook for next year...aye aye aye

and now some more longer-goal dreams

1. learn to harmonize

2. learn to isolate my eyebrows and do the wave with them

3. meet someone and talk to them in an accent and convince them i'm from some foreign land

4. learn to speak cantonese...aye

it's kinda a boring, weird list. that's why i made it different colors, to create the illusion that it was exciting. sorry for deceiveries

def not as adventurous as, say, Carl Frederickson or Katie's Wonderful Summer Indeed (shoutout whatcha know about that katherine!)

alright i don't know what to leave you with...lemme see here.

here's a cool song that i enjoy:

black eyed peas - alive

my small group... u1uKnow (my own personal catchphrase that i don't think will ever catch on)

oh and lookie! this is a picture of me taken exactly 1 year ago, on June 1, 2008.

it's me, two bags of multi-colored pasta, and some steam!

and some tasty-looking gelato!

go and be merry, fools!

gasp!

can't shut UP

bigger than the (this?) world

from our good friend JT's demo

(which was my january jam)

and check out them lyrics:

I think my heart might explode

Cause now I feel the weight

of your love on me now

From my head down to my toes

cause I can't handle nothin' else

I'm starring at the mirror at these clothes

That is funny, they mean about as much as yesterday

Something is calling me home, me home

I can hear your voice and I'm not afraid

Now I know I'm just a girl

Trying to make my way through this life

Now I feel bigger than the world

With your hand in mine

dang. with minor tweaking this could def be a praise song

it's a little bit of "now i've found/the greatest love of all is mine" in the first stanza plus a tad of Matthew 6 do-not-worry-etcetera in the second stanza plus some girl bizznass in the third one. haha

anyway, today was Day One, yah...?

so my first day of self revolution consisted of waking up late, going to eat dim sum in chinatown with josh,austin,judy,christina a-mill, and then going to The Pot's hot pot place with my parents. it was radical.

so yeah...God works in his own time.

for now, i'll just pray. and convince myself that most songs can be altered to be sung to Jesus

i'm trying to figure out what it means to deny myself.

i sense change looming on the horizon. scary slash exciting

but oh boy, jesus, i am ready to fall

today is Day One.

haters and lovers.

as you can imagine, there are plenty of haters in the world.

for example, a few youtube comments we receive:

a trend i notice is that the haters have pretty bad grammar slash they do not make sense.

and a lover:

and some more lovers:

so that's my bible study small group...mad-dawg love shout out to y'all

i guess this post is a little late, since i started a draft of it last friday but never finished it until now.

but lemme give you a timeline of last week.

on thursday was our last bible study so we were gonna grill some grade A+ steaks at matt's house and have a feast. but the day before i got an email from abba modern. because the seniors of abba modern were gonna perform at friday's large group (since it was like a senior send-off), and they wanted to incorporate the non-senior IV members into the dance too (so that it'd be like "we are the next generation" kinda deal)...that's complicated. but anyway, the practice was gonna be on thursday but that was the same night as bible study celebration extravaganza! but they said abba modern practice would only take an hour, so i left bible study early. but instead of taking one hour, it took four. and time really just went by fast and before you know it it was midnight and i was feeling pretty guilty for ditching bible study...so i called matt and he said they saved me food and that if i was hungry i should come back. so i thought it'd just be me and him eating some food, but it turns out my entire small group still waited up and was chillin at matt's apartment still. and they played vijjeo games while i ate the food, which was still good even though the steaks weren't fresh off the girl (don't worry matthew, even though you don't read this weblog). and it was a pretty fun time. especially christina, who was running on like 2 hours of sleep, who played a pretty weird game of nba 2k9, but was funny. and then amber had some ridiculous "push ups"....but end of story is, i felt mad, unexpected love right then and there.

i luhhh you small group

romans 12:10

be devoted to one another in brotherly love. honor one another above yourselves.

so since then, i've been thinking a lot about how to show love...brotherly/sisterly love. which has been timely in light of all these feelings of community that have been arising.

BUT, more on that later

okay, bottom lines:

• i like 'love'
• be wary of youtube commenters, whether they be haters or lovers
• if you're gonna be a hater, make sure you are gramatically correct. otherwise i become he who hates on you (sike).

olliviare yeah!

chapter III:

come visit us! apt. 304

we'll have snacks and open doors

gregoire danielcita

part II in a series of my future roommates. 

observe:

save me.

it is written.

i want to write something here but i just don't know what exactly...i've kinda left it blank for the past hour. so it'll come eventually